On June 9th I journaled: "Why am I choosing to partner with The Wellness Company?" Why now you say-it seems obsurd-too much to take on another business at a time like this. Well as I was awoken again tonight, I was prompted again to write. I realized that I must say:"Why not now?" I am in the heart of chronic pain trusting that only God can get me through. For He promises that He can bring me through all things, and He alone can bring me through. We are dealing with lost wages at a time when we have clearly set our hearts toward financial Peace through a God-centered philosophy like F.P.U. I believe that our desire for financial prosperity reflect God's desire for our family and the Kingdom. I believe that I have been prompted-urged-counceled and refined over the past year or two and am now fully prepared for COMPLETE SURRENDER to God's will for my life. Although to the on-looker it may look impossible, "All things are possible through Christ Who Strengthens me"! (Phillipians 4:13)I also know that "They that hope in or wait on the Lord will renew their strength, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31) This is how I can explain my strength over the last couple of weeks at work. God has indeed done what He said He would do. I HAVE had strength. Case in point: My phone call home on Saturday June 4th to Brent. I asked his advice whether to come home and cancel my last two clients due to my pain levels being at a 10. He said that we really could not afford to loose the income, and that I should stay. I said that I needed him to pray for me, and took his advice to stay knowing that I was physically and emotionally out of gas due to my Autoimmune dissease. I believed that if He was praying for me and he felt God leading me to stay that I would follow his advice. God would bring me to the other side. I took 3 Advil, and layed on the floor in the Esthetician's room at the salon for 15 minutes and surrendered to God's strength. The extra $100 turned into $150, and I was anble to do it in God's strength alone, because if it were up to me I wold have given up and gone home. The icing on the cake however not only did I make it through the last two clients, I went home PAIN-FREE and full of JOY! So again I ask "Why do I choose to do this now?" Because God has directed me here. And after all and through all that I am going through, He alone provides my strength, and my resources, and my direction for this life. I know that because of the PEACE that has surrounded this decision that it is the call of God on my life for "...such a time as this...". (Esther)
With Hopeful Expectation-Carrie
